Yesterday, I went to church. Not a big deal right? I've been faithfully attending church for the last 15 years (with the notable exception of the last 3 months). But lately, I guess you can say that I've been a bit "burned out" on church. While I know that I should be in attendance somewhere, I have had zero motivation to start seeking a new one. Why is that? The last time God led us out of a church, He led us straight to the new one. Back then, however, my children were young & I believe God knew we couldn't afford a "gap" like the one we're sitting in now. Norm & I are feeling more than a little disillusioned on the institution of church & have not felt any clear direction as to where we were headed. Yesterday, we went to church...because a friend invited us. It was a very freeing moment. The experience was real & sincere, and overall felt...well....sweet. Not only did we hear a great message, but I was once again able to worship alongside dear friends. That's when I felt loved. Loved by His children worshipping around me...but more importantly by my Heavenly Father. I had a brief conversation with the church pastor afterwards & his words of compassion & his sincere caring reassured me that His servants are out there motivated by a passionate love of Christ & a need to love His children. I don't know if this is where God is leading us, it feels irrelevant at this point. In reading my friend Jim's recent blog, I know what we've been waiting for. Not a big surprise....but trying to be patient with God & His perfect timing for us all. In the meantime, I know that His servants are everywhere - leading, encouraging, supporting....loving. I feel stronger today...and loved. Thank you Lord.Monday, June 25, 2007
Feeling Loved...Needing Direction
Yesterday, I went to church. Not a big deal right? I've been faithfully attending church for the last 15 years (with the notable exception of the last 3 months). But lately, I guess you can say that I've been a bit "burned out" on church. While I know that I should be in attendance somewhere, I have had zero motivation to start seeking a new one. Why is that? The last time God led us out of a church, He led us straight to the new one. Back then, however, my children were young & I believe God knew we couldn't afford a "gap" like the one we're sitting in now. Norm & I are feeling more than a little disillusioned on the institution of church & have not felt any clear direction as to where we were headed. Yesterday, we went to church...because a friend invited us. It was a very freeing moment. The experience was real & sincere, and overall felt...well....sweet. Not only did we hear a great message, but I was once again able to worship alongside dear friends. That's when I felt loved. Loved by His children worshipping around me...but more importantly by my Heavenly Father. I had a brief conversation with the church pastor afterwards & his words of compassion & his sincere caring reassured me that His servants are out there motivated by a passionate love of Christ & a need to love His children. I don't know if this is where God is leading us, it feels irrelevant at this point. In reading my friend Jim's recent blog, I know what we've been waiting for. Not a big surprise....but trying to be patient with God & His perfect timing for us all. In the meantime, I know that His servants are everywhere - leading, encouraging, supporting....loving. I feel stronger today...and loved. Thank you Lord.
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If I my offer some words. Do not wait too long to start going to church any church. I feel into that hole. Once you start it's hard to get back into it. I now am using my lack of faith, trust, or anything toward teh instituion of church as a crutch. I think it now is laziness but...sometimes we need the crutches I suppose. Laziness and pride can creep even into the wise. Much love, ME!
glad you enjoyed church on sunday. i'm really starting to feel that empty feeling inside... i missed church this sunday and of course there hasn't been epic for awhile now. i try to make an effort to do more personal study, but you know how that goes sometimes, especially in the summer. i really miss worship. can't wait for that door to open!
Hey friend I am sorry I missed the oppurtunity to worship with yall yesturday. After reading your blog it made me sad. I think I have gotten caught up in my own life and have already started to forget how much I loved worshiping with my friends. It just sucks. Can we go again and next time I won't be lazy.
Love You
Said a prayer for you and Norm today as I read your blog and you are on my weekly prayer list. In this interim, the Lord remains faithful and can see what is ahead. He knows your hearts, your needs, your feelings, all of it and His heart and will towards you is one of love. Abide in that. Blessings, Abram :)
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